Waiting

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Waiting....not one of my favorite verbs. Waiting, we do so much of it every day, but nothing is like waiting for a child. Waiting for a child you don't know or even know when they will be part of your life. The waiting part of adoption is the hardest part for me. I don't like to wait and not know an outcome or have a timeline as to when something is going to happen. I have heard it said that you are just pregnant without a due date. While others may see it this way I don't. I see it the only way I can....waiting.

We are waiting for that email that says "we have a situation you may be interested in", waiting for that call saying "the birthmom has chosen you" or the email saying "she has chosen another family" and we continue waiting again. Lots of waiting. While I try to keep my mind occupied with other things it is hard. I check my email just to see and email from the agency about an event they have coming up. Don't they know that isn't the email I am waiting for.  :) 

While I am waiting I know God is working, he is working my life into the beautiful design of his plan. He is working on the details of my future child, they ins & outs of his or her face, fingers, toes, brain, & heart. He is working on my trust in him, he is teaching me to trust him more each day. He is working in this expectant mom, working on her heart and mind, showing her that maybe she can give her child a better life. Whatever the reason or situation God is working. 

I am so thankful I can place my trust in an all-knowing God, in a God who has not only my future, but my families future, and the future of my future child in his hands. He is a God of love and I am thankful I am his child, by adoption none the less.  God adopted me, he allows me to call him dad, he has given me a new life. I am very thankful for my adoption into his family!  

So even though waiting can be hard who better to wait with than the God who already knows the amazing blessing he will give us when he decides we are ready & prepared to love this amazing gift of a child!!

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