Our Journey Through Life

The last 5 days have been ones that I won't forget. I have loved holding my new son! It still doesn't seem real and I keep thinking I'm in a dream. Everyone in the NICU has been amazing. They are so perfect for their job. Our first visit with him was Monday. As soon as the papers were signed we went in to be with him. We were with him for about 15 minutes before a good friend who works in the hospital came to visit. We all cried because we still didn't believe he was ours. We know we have a long road, but God wouldn't have given us this if he didn't think we were the perfect fit for Calvin. T got to be in the NICU and see his brother. One more thing of God's hands and his perfect timing. They told us that they were going into restricted visitors beginning Saturday. We were so glad T got to meet Calvin. Later on, grandparents came down and couldn't wait to get their hands on them. He loves to be held and cuddled.  We spend about 5 hours with him on Mond...

Last Monday 12/14 we received a call that we were not chosen again for a baby. We were devastated. This was the 3rd time in 2 years. We thought for sure we would be picked this time. Our hearts were heavy, tears were many, and life seemed hard. We cried, cried, and cried tears of sorrow. We didn't want to start over again. We were tired and ready to quit. We didn't understand why God was allowing us to have more suffering. Our son was tired. I cried out to God, wondering when my time would come. I cried out asking if we could just have an easy situation and it be over. We picked up and moved on...continued with our week as normal. As if nothing had happened, as we normally would each day. Then it happened. I was scrolling through Facebook, just randomly looking at different things & noticed someone had posted something new in an adoption group I am in. I clicked over just to check it out.  This person was asking if anyone knew of home study ready families that would be i...

This will be a quick update as I have lots going on with Christmas just around the corner. We have been busy preparing and spending extra time as a family.  I just love Christmas, it is my favorite time of the year and this year I had all my gifts bought before December. Yay, for time to enjoy Christmas! The agency has been slow lately, there hasn't been much of anything going on. Usually there is at least out of state birth moms that they are sending out, but even those have been slow. It has been about a month since we heard any updates or have had any new birth moms.  We got a call last week that a birth mom wants to meet with us! Yay, we are excited. We meet with her tomorrow. This time the agency wants us to bring T. They feel that it could be good for the birth mom to see him. They feel that since we homeschool, seeing how he interacts with others and how we parent him would be beneficial. We are hoping so too! T is very outgoing and told me just today that he i...