Our Journey Through Life

I cry, yes in this adoption journey, I cry.   I cry A LOT!!!!    I cry for many reasons. I cry because I will never get to tell my husband or family we are having a baby.  I do not get to surprise them with a I'm going to be a Dad, Grandpa, Grandma, ect. shirt, or picture, or anything that goes along with that first time of being parents. I cry because I don't get to a gender reveal party. I don't get to plan special things for people to decide what we are having. I don't get to be surprised when I look at that ultrasound. I don't get to pick out colors or styles to do with my nursery. I have to be neutral because I don't know if I will get a boy or girl. Even once we are matched I don't know if that one will be ours. I won't know for sure until we can bring that baby home. I cry because I don't get to see an ultrasound of my child. I don't get that first glimpse of them as a peanut. I don't get to watch them grow or move. I don't ...

This past Sunday was Resurrection Sunday. The day we chose to specifically celebrate Jesus' resurrection from the dead. It is spring and life new life is all around us. Spring is a time when I am reminded that I am a new life in Christ. He has washed away all my deadness (sin) and given me new life in him. While I still sin, I am forgiven of that sin because of what he did for me on the cross. He chose to die for my sins, he was perfect & flawless, and he chose to take all the evil, bad, selfish, prideful things I do on him so that one day I can be with him. I am so thankful for what he did for me! I would love to say that we have a new little life in our life , but I cannot. It is not yet in God's plans for us to meet him/her. We have finished our transfer paperwork and have submitted to one birth mom. We are excited for this new hope in this agency and to be matched with our child soon, we are still very cautious to guard our hearts and wait patiently on the Lord. Wai...